Sunday, June 8, 2014

Spin Cycle

My life just his the spin cycle.

My students know I have been feeling a little blue recently. Today was my second day back after bereavement leave for the second time in a month and one of my darlings handed me these and told me she missed me and that she hopes these help. Although I am


So much change in so little time, and it is all happening at once. Luckily it is a mixture of good and bad.

Let's just get it all out there and start with the biggest change. My father passed away on May 15th. He wasn't in the best of health, but it wasn't expected either. He went peacefully in his sleep. He is missed very much. However, I am trying to look at it as a blessing in disguise. Knowing that he didn't have to suffer this and and that it must have been his time, help a little bit. I am dealing with this the best I can and as my mom has put it "(I am) learning how to live with our new normal."

Dad

This wasn't the only death we dealt with this last little bit. My husband's grandfather also passed away at the end of April. His health was declining (as it does as we age) and he caught an infection that he just couldn't fight off. We got to say our goodbye at the hospital. He too is missed very much by all of us.

Gramps

Both of these men were very influential in my life and taught me a lot about love, hard work, trust, honesty and working towards success and happiness. I know they were both so proud of my accomplishments and who I have so far grown up to become. My dad was all there for me, supporting me and loving me especially whenever I needed that push to become the better me. Gramps filled the void of never known my own grandfathers and always treated me like his own grand kid. I am so glad and lucky that I got to have these people in my life. Although, they may not be with us any longer, what they have taught and share with all the loved will not be forgotten.

However, even with all this going on I do have some celebrations. I am almost done with my Administrative credential. In the last few days, I have written 3 papers and completed 2 field works, plus attended my last class. I have 2 finial papers left (one is make up for the time I missed in the last couple months), a final project and a presentation to go. Then I am done and graduate on June 21st.

Leadership Insitute Corsework

School is also almost out. It has been a great year with my bunch of fourth graders. They have grown so much and I am so proud of them. This year I also had a student teacher, it was great to watch him grow and develop his teaching skills. He made a great impact on my students and I am sure he will make a huge impact on all the students he has in the future.



These will be my few last days at my school site. While in LA on bereavement leave I got a call for an interview for an instructional specialist position. I was still in shock when I got the phone call (it was the day after my father's passing) and I almost didn't take the interview. However, after I thought about it a little more I realized how disappointed my father would have been in my for at least not trying. We made a quick trip back to Sacramento from LA and then back down, but it was well worth it. I am so excited about my new position. I know that I really enjoy working with adults to ensure the success of our students and the position will allow me to do that. The role isn't clearly defined yet, but I think it will be an amazing adventure and a great experience.


Now on top the funny yet some what annoy part of this whole spin cycle analogy.  When I came back up from to have my interview, I started doing laundry as we had already been in LA from almost a week. Well, that is when my washing machine decide to call it quits. The spin cycle broke and we purchased a new set of washer and dryer.

New washer and dryer

I have to tell you they are all pretty and new. However, they are different, just like my life, and this is going to take some getting use to.

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8 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. It sounds like they were a great influence on your life and I'm sure they will be missed.
    What is up with the Washer Gods? Our washer (thankfully not the dryer) broke just before a had a houseful of guests coming for a week!! We had to replace ours as well.
    Congrats on all the great work news too! It's so hard to be happy for ourselves when we are surrounded by loss, but be sure to take a few moments to be proud of yourself!!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. I too am sorry to hear about your losses too. Learning to live a new normal is rough, but we can both do it, it will just take time. I agree our memories and the love we feel for them is a big help. I wish you the best.

      Oh and as for the washer - It was just my washer too, but my washer and dryer weren't raised up so I just bought a whole new set and craigslisted the other. Worked out well, some guy took it who likes to fix washers in his retirement.

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  2. The men in your life must be very proud of you right now. You have suffered terrible loss and yet kept on going. I have no doubt you will take the 'new normal' in your stride!

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    1. Thanks so much Maureen. I really appreciate your kind words. I am just taking each day as it comes and trying to see the good in everything.

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  3. Sorry to hear about your losses, sounds like you are having a positive attitude though and looking at the silver linings. Congrats on your new job :)

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    1. Thank you for your condolences. Some days are harder than others. Also thanks for congratulations on new job. I am super excited for the new adventure.

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  4. Sorry for your losses and happy for your good. Take care.

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